Posts tagged ‘single’

August 13, 2009

iljb#42: Getting shit done and out of the way

Simply put, I am hustling my way through August. I am so grateful however for all the opportunities thats this summer has offered to me. Many job opportunities (however many failed attempts), relationships (friends and significant wanna bes), quality time with family, and most importantly hanging out with the wonderful friends. I must say that this summer, regardless of the downside of things, has been the best yet that I have experienced. It feels so right, feels so good, it feels like I am where I am supposed to be.

Less than a week from now, I will be embarking on a trip down to SoCal and officially be free from being poor 😀 haha hopefully fin. aid kicks in before we leave *CROSSES FINGERS*. You never can tell anymore due to budget cuts. Anywho, this whole trip and this upcoming year is just slowly creeping closer than I thought. A week ago I couldn’t believe it was August. Now we in mid August and I can’t believe my birthday is coming up!

Twenty friggin three. What an awesome number. Esp. since I will be turning 23 on the 23rd! 😀 I love it. I can’t help but smile and be grateful for all the blessings that I have been bestowed in my life. Everyday is a blessing. Everyday I know that it will be a good day!

It would be nice if I had someone to share it with – but like I said in my recent video, I’m glad I’m single and I am happy. But you know, I can’t help but have those feelings of wanting someone. I think its just human nature to want/be with someone. We come in pairs in a way haha. I’m just assuring myself that once the semester kicks in I will bump into that wonderful guy that I have been thinking of.

It was nice to feel giddy at Intramura and seeing that guy. He was so fione! haha Ralph knows him, or I think he does since I checked facebook lol. *STALKER* okayy haha. But it was fun having a lil exciting added to the night. I won a balikbayan box LOL ugh I wished for it HAHA damnit! DAMN the secret.

On another side note, today I felt so productive because out of the list that I wrote down for today, I basically got over half of it done. I’m so proud of myself. I get shit done and out of the way mother fuckkass!

I just can’t wait till school starts and my real grind begins. I think this fall sem. will be my hardest in a long time. It will test me in so many ways that I’m scared, but more so excited and hopefully.

What will come will come. I just have to pray and know for the best =] …Tis all for this wonderful Thursday. Goodnight world.

September 25, 2008

You sure was

I am on my DAY 3 hype and I’m doing a lot A LOT better. I’m glad I’m able to just pick myself like I did within these couple of days. I just realized the kind of WORTH I am to myself.

With the wise words of Vincent, know your worth – strive to get someone whos worth your time and whos at least good looking as you are. 

TRUE! But he also said, I think you don’t go for top notch cause you feel like you’re not worth it – or fear of rejection. 

TRUE! But I dunno…its weird…I seen my first ex on campus during practice. He locked eyes and for a second it was just me and him…then I turned my head as if I didn’t see him…he was smoking as usual. I saw him walk away, but I also saw him turn back right when I was looking at him. I quickly pretended not to see him. WHY DID I DO THAT? I could have waved…I dunno…hes mean. lol =/ mmm interesting though…Then I get a call from my recent ex and he was asking me if I was going to fuz and I was like NO! wth…and like he was trying to find a conversation to start with me and I had nothing to give him. It goes to show that I really am hard to get to know/read when I want to be.

Oh I dunno what this blog is about but…sigh…I’m still single! haha