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April 15, 2010

38TH ANNUAL PCN


I worked my ass off and it only took a day and a half =] COME support PACE’s 38th Annual PCN.

‚̧ I missed designing – thank you PACE for giving me that outlet to.

August 29, 2009

iljb#47: Rushing…

I feel like today was rushed to get to where I am today. I had work, did laundry, organized my life in between, and now awaiting my family to come and swoop me for dinner. I didn’t even eat all day because I’m waiting for dinner. (So bad). In any case, this rush is good. I feel this urge to make my first weeks the jump off of my whole year. It has just begun and I am already busy! I can’t hardly breathe haha. I’ve also been excited to do my hw – which is a first because I never ever feel excited to do hw. I just haven’t gotten a chance to peep at it because I have been lagging 2-4 hrs behind on schedule. But I’ll get there folks…it just takes time HA how ironic right?

I feel good today because I was able to pay off my best buy debt. Something I’ve been meaning to do for the last 2 years. I can’t believe it. I am stoked. I paid for it. Now I just hope my credit will be fine so I can actually get a REAL credit card. shoot. haha in addition, I was able to go to the dentist. =] Now all I need to do is get contacts and sign up for GRE. I am way more than enough money to handle myself this semester. I feel good because for the first time in awhile, I feel stable. I think its in part to the secret. DAMN secret really does work. =] I am grateful every day I wake up.

First thing I do when I wake up is acknowledge what I am grateful for and just thank everything for happening. I really do think this is why I have been so lucky these past weeks. I am so grateful for everything. Life, school, friends, family, my future ahead! I have been given this chance to make it big and I know I will be able to achieve anything if I just put my mind to it. IT is going to be a busy semester, but I know I am able to handle my own.

I work so damn hard to get where I am right now. It feels good to be where I am right now because with all the bad experiences I’ve had in the past year, all seem to be nothing but dust off my shoulder. I can lift my head up high and know that taking a risk, doing my best, and giving it my all is all that matters. Even when I’m down, I know theres a reason to be grateful. I do have those times, like recently, where I wish I had this and that, but I know that I am way blessed to have the things I have right now.

Because of faith, because of me, because of God – He is able to work his wonders through me. Could I have asked for a better birthday present? ha no.

On a side note.

Today at work I saw Jeff and his bf Anthony. It made me reminisce how I had a chance with Jeff, but couldn’t hang cause he obviously was not doing well in school. I tried no doubt, but it was just too complicated (haha a few months later he got with his current bf). Anthony, I’ve never really seen or met until recently. Never talked to him or whatever. But today just seeing Jeff and him – ugh made me jealous – like the fuck? YOU GUYS ARE HOT together haha. However, I reminded myself I hold my own pretty well and they aren’t at my level and I ain’t on theirs. Its all those could have, would have, man I wish I had…moments. He looked me straight in the eye to ask for water and I said to myself – damn you are grown – I remember you being so…lol I dunno even Ricardo and Ezra. The hell!?!?! haha I never really talked to Ricardo…and well Ezra haha. Its crazy how I will never understand their lifestyle, friendships, drama, or whatever because for me I know when I need to get the fuck out cause I ain’t having any of that. It made me say to myself, my man is coming. After all these great things happening to me, I know that he is coming too. ūüėõ

I don’t need to hope…cause I know. What a rush right?

I am in a point in my life where if you ain’t on point I will leave. I am in a point in my life where school is definitely a priority as well as my career. I am in a point in my life where I feel great about everything =] Things are doing great for me. I am doing fine.

mmmm I think I’m just overwhelmed haha

July 18, 2009

iljb#36: Moving Forward.

Relationships are definitely on pause for me starting today. I can’t take this baggage of having shit falter in the end after pouring my heart and soul out there. I guess its my fault that I do wear my heart on my sleeve, but I think its just because I am honest and up front with things. I just don’t understand how, “So are you sure you want to do this?” can be a confusing question for someone? I mean, its a simple yes or no, especially if you know that you just got out of a relationship. However, I trusted their judgement and well that judgement turned out to spit on my face. Again, I’m not in total shock, just because I knew something like this would happen considering the situation. POINT taken Joaquin, you should have known better. Finding “love” in all the wrong places, should have known better. I guess what I didn’t like was being treated like a rebound. I mean…I wish it was mutual, but it wasn’t. I was in it more than he was. I mean he did kiss me first…I was drunk…Oh man…it was all a mess I guess. SHRUG. I gotta shake it off, DAY9 and I’m doing better, much better. So in relation to REALationships…I guess the most important relationship now is me, myself, and I. I swear…I get caught up and side tracked that I lose focus on what I truly want in life: to be successful in my skills and make something out of it.

Which leads me to why I am so motivated to “do this year”. I have so much to look forward to and so much I want to accomplish.

A birthday week, saving up/trading in my tribute for a new car, paying off my credit, helping my sister w a grand or half a grand, paying all my bills, getting a NEW job, graduating.

FUCK – I mean thats just the beginning and finding a time to fit a man – BOY – in there is ridiculous. I can’t – I wont – I will not. I’ve been spending a lot of time with G-Up and man does it feel good to hang out with friends. Its a nice escape from reality. I recently just did a photo shoot and that made me feel happy =]. SIMPLE things like this have been making my summer worth it. Better late than never. I’m just realizing that,

IF YOU ARE NOT IN THE BANDWAGON, YOU HAVE ALREADY MISSED YOUR CHANCE

I’m slowly realizing this…I’m slowly accepting it and I’m okay with it. Just reinforcing my WORTH and knowing that its not me missing out – its you! I even mentioned to folks, WE LIVE EXCEPTIONAL LIVES, if folks don’t know our worth then give em a big FUCK YOU! We don’t need folks to bring us down.

I’m moving faster – moving forward – moving at a speed that is exciting, but frightening.

In a month, my whole life will change! 23! THATS A FUCKING number. 23! Most 23 year olds haven’t been through the shit I’ve been through, experienced the shit I’ve experienced…done what I’ve done. FUCK 23! Thats the fucking start of my journey.

BIG DREAMS?

I do have big dreams and right now its in the city of SAN FRANCISCO. Its not only now do I realize my potential and the real beauty that is San Francisco. I want to work in the city. I want to make a life in the city. For some, it doesn’t work. For me…I love it. Its true, I can’t possibly relocate to a new place when I have yet realized my full potential here. Besides, trips and vacations are gonna come around – so its not a big deal for me to move permanently, all I need is an escape.

I’ve been doing that actually. Escaping slowly…finding out that its okay to hang out with Jamba Juice coworkers (in fact I will be hanging out with some next week), going home to family just for a day to just hang out with mom and sis (feels so good), just doing my own thing and expressing my own thoughts on youtube and on wordpress. ITS SO THERAPEUTIC. As much as I complain, post really emo status’s, I am fine with life and I know that the journey right now is preparing me for something big.

GOD has something GREAT prepared for me. I know it. He’s been handling all of my troubles lately. However small or big, he’s been there holding my hand. I haven’t been to church in awhile, but it just goes to show that miracles still happen even if you aren’t practicing being a Catholic. I just have to say I have to give a lot of thanks to the Lord for giving me several opportunities these past weeks with jobs. Oh did I mention hes been hooking me up with extra cash!? lol And my mom has been able to give me 20 here and there. ‚̧ Life isn’t as bad when you’re struggling…it seems like I’m learning more than if I weren’t. I live for this struggle.

MOVING forward. THIS IS my anthem. THIS is what I sing. THIS is what I shall do.

I will make that change and listen to my own voice, like my horoscope said, I know myself better than anyone – I can handle it. I can handle IT!

MOVING FORWARD. DOING THIS FOR ME. I GOT A BRIGHT FUTURE AHEAD. I LIVE FOR THIS.

July 12, 2009

iljb#35: ilike QUOTES by me! :D

My PASSION is my DRIVE that will get me to my DESTINATION to my FUTURE. Believe in yourself and the world will come to you!

I care about my happiness so thats what I’m going to do tomorrow, take care of my happiness.

My future is unstoppable only if I believe it to be! I am a force to be reckoned with!

I live for my future, I live for my family and friends, I live to make change, I live this struggle because I can handle it.

You can escape only for so long. But you’ll end up having to face your reality.

I continue to wonder what I’ve left behind. But I’m not holding on to baggage thats not mine. All I know is the broken can be fixed.

I live the exceptional lifestyle, feels good.

People with integrity do what they say they are going to do. Others have excuses.

Life is possible when your dreams are alive and real.

Nothing is impossible, unless you make it.

Knowing you worth is half the battle.

I’d give you my advice, but its better if you took your own.

We all live by the rules of love, but we forget that there weren’t any rules to begin with.

You’re the music that keeps me on my feet.

They can talk all they want, but thats all they do – talk.

I can’t own your actions.

The journey is priceless.

If you’ve experienced the worst, expect to come out of it better than you were in it.

You’ve made me cry because you meant that much to me.

If it doesn’t work a third time, it will never work.

Its easy to move on because the situation seems all to familiar.

I look back and wonder what I could have done differently.

Money does make me happy.

October 19, 2008

Stories

Its amazing to read about something that places things that happens every day in perspective. The product of our lives is a reflection of the stories we make. Stories enhance a persons lives. We tell a story every day whether its about something that happened to us, explaining a lecture that a friend missed, or this blog that you are currently reading. These stories make up our lives and enhances our productivity. The book I’m reading for my DAI class entitled, A Whole New Mind by Daniel H. Pink is supposed to mold young designers like me to start thinking with both sides of the brain, rather than the one side that we’ve been socialized to think with.¬†

The chapter I currently read was a part of the six senses in which we need to help us engage in this Conceptual Age. Design, Story, Symphony,¬†Empathy, Play, and Meaning. These, “will guide our lives and shape our world” (Pink, 67) as Pink states in his book. Clearly, I understand his¬†analysis even more as I read the chapter about Story.¬†

In the chapter, he talks about how stories are as important as facts. He explains that a story is how we retain information and it is an easier way to remember a subject matter. Furthermore, he also shows a misconception that society has on stories vs facts by stating, “Stories amuse; facts¬†illuminate. Stories divert; facts reveal. Stories are for cover; facts are for real.” However, the reality is that, “Stories are important cognitive events, for they encapsulate, into one compact package, information, knowledge, context, and emotion.”(Pink, 103).

In most work places, having someone read a manual is not the only method of teaching. Telling a story is an additional method that many jobs have encouraged to help their employees better grasps the information and purpose of their job. Take for instance at Jamba Juice, we are required to read a manual, but after training, our trainers and managers give significance to all the material by telling a story like, “Building block number four is important because we don’t want any of our customers to come into a store and feel like our story is dirty.” Stories like these give more significance to the job requirement.¬†

But more interestingly, the section that got me really interested was the fact that several companies have used “story” in their products. An example that Pink stated was how he was debating on three liquors to purchase, but he didn’t know which one to chose from. The third option was different from the other two in that on the label it told a brief history on company, Tattoo Red, and how they explained 50 cents from the sale they get go towards cancer research. So Pink purchased Tattoo Red.¬†

This is just one example of how story can help a produce profit or enhance the appeal to consumers. Another example I can think of is the Vitamin Water, which have brief stories on the label. Other brands such as Starbucks, Jamba Juice, and McDonalds follow the same trend of telling a story. Stories are not only used to help sell, but stories also help heal. In the chapter, Pink explains how story has become essential in the medical field to nurses/doctors in interacting with patients. 

Overall, “Stories represent a pathway to understanding that doesn’t run through the left side of the brain.” (Pink, 115)¬†

Think about it, its bogles my mind! haha =]

 

 

 

EW I’m a nerd! LMAO HAHAH this looks like a essay response hahaha but its just for my personal enjoyment…gross =] HAHAHAH

October 15, 2008

I get like this …

I get like this when I’m alone and sitting under the sun at state. Its crazy to just remind myself…you’re a friggin senior on this campus (not graduating though) and you pretty much know the ins and outs of this campus better than most. However, why do I feel at times like I am still lost and still trying to figure out what the hell I’m doing in my major. Sure I’m taking classes to enhance my understanding about the world. Sure I’m writing essays and responses to condition myself to write properly. BUT what the hell am I really doing? Where the hell am I going with my life.¬†

Some of my friends are graduating this year and yes some of them are still unsure what they’re going to be doing after graduation, but I know that they have a better handle on their career than I do. Its like a paper without a thesis, there’s no relevance or importance without a guide or direction.¬†

I’m good at graphic design, I have concepts, I can’t think of creative¬†models, but …what the hell am I going to do with that if I don’t know what internships I’m going to take, how I’m going to get there, what aspect of design I want to focus. UGH, I know that I’m taking 370 for a reason, but its so¬†tedious¬†that it discourages me to get real in depth with my major. Much like my communication class. The only class in which I felt like I really gained a perspective on DAI is my history class. Though I might not remember all of what I learned, I know for a fact that I learned something!¬†

I’m learning everyday to really appreciate where I am. I really take this environment and experience for granted A LOT! I don’t mean to, but the fact that I am in the motions of growing up and learning from my mistakes, I just forget a lot of times that I am¬†privileged¬†to have this education, environment…feel me?

I just had a hugeeeeee HUGEEE upset in my life not to long ago and it just fucked up my whole mode of doing things. I know I should have known better to let things like THAT get in the way, but risks is another factor in making this experience worth while. However, its gotten the best of me. I turned in the worst paper of my life, I have obligations to settle, a slideshow for a debutant, work, and midterms to really hash out. Did I forget to mention I need to fit in sleep in there some how? 

Life is only complicated when you don’t have control of it. I feel like I’m starting to regain it slowly. The choices I make impact my future. I NEED TO REMIND MYSELF THAT. I’m not here for guys, I’m not here for friendship, I’m not here to fuck around anymore…I am here for my future. MY, NOT YOUR, FUTURE.¬†

I wish I was a little bit smarter. I wish I was a little bit more confident. I wish I had better social skills. I wish …

GO HARD OR GO HOME

September 30, 2008

You don’t expect that when you grow up

That your assignment is to doodle. haha. Thats what we do in my DAI (Design and Industry) class. We draw while we have professors/presenters come in. CRAZY! In middle school through high school if you were caught doodling, you are considered to not be paying attention. In college however, you are encouraged to! haha CRAZY! Draw РDRAW РDRAWWWWWWW! 

Oh man…it just put things into perspective tonight. Where I want to go with my career.

“Make design an outlet of expression to show cultural relevance about the Pilipino/Pilipino American culture to others through posters, flyers, DESIGN!”

LOL my bad thesis! haha jp! BUT YES! COLLEGE IS NOW IN SESSION in my book. LETS do this! I got hella pumped when Steve Jones spoke tonight, a professor in DAI. I want him as my professor. REAL TALK! 

LETS DO THIS S F S U!!!!! hahah wow…I can’t believe what my classes are expecting me to do haha crazy! ūüėÄ

September 18, 2008

UPDATE 9/18

I love promoting shit! lol. If you don’t know what SPAM is, its Showcasing Pilipino Artists and Muscians presented by PACE (Pilipino American Collegiate Endeavor). The line up is dope. For yal who don’t know Philtered Soul, you are definitely missing out. Also, fans of MissCarolineXoXo, watch out April will also be there performing at SPAM. And yes, I too will be there, Mr. ilikejoaquin! So get your will call today! =] Its that simple. Check out their myspace at myspace.com/sfsupace.

Trust me, you wont want to miss it!

Also, have you heard of a thing called…FRIENDSHIP GAMES? If you haven’t you should ask about it! Check out http://sfsufg.wordpress.com for more information on Friendship Games. Get involved and meet new folks. I and the rest of the SF State crew will be heading down to FG on Oct 25. If you will be around the area of Fullerton and are a college student, I definitely suggest you attending this event! FOREAL, its gonna be awesome. Plus you get to meet me ūüėÄ any fans out there wanna meet me? haha go to FG.

Speaking of FG. BakitWhy.com will be there promoting BakitWhy. Please stay tuned for upcoming events and the newly redesigned website coming shortly. Its going to be a bangin year for BakitWhy and we want you to be a part of it. Exclusive interviews, media, and articles in just clicks away. Stop by BakitWhy.com to see whats good. Bakit? Just go check it out.

So this blog is gonna be a lil fun and a lil emo…but I’ll start with the fun. So yesterday I was walking downtown with Vince and Lena and suddenly I literally get stopped on the streets by these three girls. They go, “Hey are you ilikejoaquin? OMG I watch your videos!” haha I was so shocked that I was flustered in what to say next. I didn’t even chat with them because I was so flustered and I didn’t want Vince and Lena to be waiting on me, but I did get their names and shook their hands…though I really am bad with names…BUT! haha HI if you’re reading this. SHOUT OUTS TO YOU! haha awww you three were fun. I said to myself…is this how misscaroline feels? hahaha nice.

Then I had FG Roll Call practice ūüėÄ OoOo weee I had hella fun! I’m so surprised with the way I handled roll call this time around…its easier for me to pick up on moves now…unlike before. I’m so proud of myself haha. I snap and work ladies! shoot HAHAHA. But yeah, I just want to take this time to just really talk about my friends who are dancers.

This goes to FJD and SF Modern (you know who you are). Its crazy cause right off the bat, some of the folks in it today weren’t in it before and some who were aren’t it in now, but regardless the growth I’ve seen and maturity in the dance level that was performed last night was truly exceptional. I was amazed and astonished with the precision and the accuracy of the moves. Dazzled and delighted. They truly are my inspiration. Its like, when my friends dance, you can see that they are in the zone and that this thing “dancing” makes them feel like nothing else in the world matters and for a matter of hours they are at peace. I love and look up to these folks. Heart, soul, mann they’re my ABDC. Ya dig? shoot.

Now on a very different note. I am actually in MV for the day and missing my viet class because I had to see my mom. My phone has been disconnected for a good week and I really didn’t mind it, but that fact of the phone call I made last night to my mom made all the difference in why I needed to have a phone at all times. So my mom calls me last week and leaves a message saying she needed to talk to me. I brushed it off since I felt like it was nothing, but I was going to call her. The next day I decide to call but my phone was already disconnected. I call her yesterday and find that my mom was taking to the emergency room (something common that she does), but this time she said that the reason why she called me that one time was because she felt like she was dying and she wanted to leave me her last words. WTF!?!?!?!?!?! right…ughhh I was so upset last night ughhh…=/ like real talk…I just cant imagine to think that it could have been the last thing I heard from my mom on my voicemail…like wtf…SIGH…so I’m here…but shes at work…man poor thing…I really don’t want her to work cause shes hella old. And I told her when I saw her today, why are you working…she goes…if I don’t we’re doomed (in tagalog its like worse) I was like ugh…sigh…so I’m here until like 10 just to keep her company kinda thing…but man…I swear…this week ughhh…=/ My advice…live each moment as if it was your last…and spend every moment with the people you love.

This is another reason why I’m erked about the state budget cause I really need that aid…UGH…however, I wanna thank JP foreal…thanks!