Posts tagged ‘guys’

September 4, 2008

cute guys

I’m a sucker for cute guys. TOTAL sucker. But I will be reminded by what Jay told me yesterday, “Maybe you should focus on school first”. Thought I’d just brush what he said off, but honestly it has been on my mind lately. UGH, but thats another story. What this entry is about is what gets me all crazy about cute guys. 

Where to start? MMMM

The face. I’m a sucker for clear, cute, faced guys. If they have a line up of some sort, I go crazy. If they have chinky eyes even better! Crispy brown complexion =] yum. Physically, I like them medium built. Not too skinny and not to frumpy haha. I like guys who wear fitted hats. Gets me all the time. I like a guy who smiles a lot. SOOO much that is hurts me to see their face. I like a guy who takes care of their nails. Hate long nails. I’m a sucker for guys who have nice calves and arms. LINE UPSSS. I’m not so much an ab guy…but its cool haha. FACE value is what really gets me. Guys who have deep voices or a really soothing voice is always a plus. LOVE IT! Makes me go crazy. A guy who is the SWEETEST most darnest thing you ever met. Polite and courteous gets me.  I LOVE PILIPINO GAY BOYS WITH CUTE SMILES AND CUTE FUCKINGGGGGGG PERSONALITY!

haha oh man…number one though…SCENT! You can be butt ugly and have the bombest scent that I’d still go crazy HAAHA. 

sigh…I think the point of this entry is to show how crazy I can get…I hate going to malls esp at serremonte cause I see the guys I want! hahaha…UGH EVERY GUY NEEDS TO BE GAY ALREADY! hahahahahahahah fucking shit…blah =( 

I’m sad because I really do need to focus on school and get my mind out of the day dream I live in daily. hahaha 

I told Jeremy and JP, “You know you’re cute and made it if a guy guy thinks you are!” 

PS. My guilty pleasures are black guys LOL hahahahahahahaahha

September 2, 2008

My Worst Enemy

I have been left with one thought in my head…”wtf”. WTF is wrong with me? WTF am I doing? WTF!? With school and attempts at a relationship…I’m left with the feeling of discontent and confusion. WTF? What is it that I want? Do I want to focus on school only? Do I want to just fuck school and get into a relationship? WAIT…WTF? When I look at this past summer, I can conclude that it just hasn’t been a crackin summer as far as attempts at relationships go. Unfortunately, to put it in terms that folks will understand, I’m that treasured apple that God told Adam and Eve not to eat, because in the end…I’ll leave you tainted and troubled. 

I can’t seem to just be content with the guys I talk to. I have MAJOR commitment issues and I really feel like its been such a handicap on my part. I haven’t been in a REAL relationship in awhile because I can’t find myself in committing in one. I feel like I’m scared of opening up too much to a person and end up feeling in the end that it was a waste of time. Or investing in so much time, that school and the relationship in hand is compromised. I don’t blame guys who look at me and know that I’m a “tainted apple” as far as I’m concerned, I could care less because I got some shit to fix. I think I want a guy to be able to stay around to be able to help and fix my problems with me. Like I was told before, I am hard to get, but I think the end result is worth sticking around for. 

Right now I just feel like I don’t know what I want and I need to tell myself this. I want someone, but at the same time I can’t handle someone. SIGH I’m definitely disgruntled and confused. Everything in my life is going well but this aspect. I’m tired of messing around, I’m tired of just doing it, I just want to have a best friend whose willing to invest time in me. 

Sigh…=/ I got issues…like I said…I don’t blame folks for avoiding any relationship with me…I think I would too =/