Posts tagged ‘cant tell’

September 30, 2008

Some things…

I’m hard headed. I think many people can get that when I refuse to listen. Its hard for me to take someones opinion into consideration – my leo side swear! What I’ve learned is, “The best mistakes are the ones experienced by ones self.” I guess you’ll never know what something truly is unless you’ve gone through it. I’m hard headed and persistent. If anything, if I truly believe in a project, subject matter, SOMETHING, I push my heart into that. Whatever consequences there might be, if its something important to me, then I’ll go for it. I’m hard headed, persistent, and analytical. Everything said, done, action, whatever it is, I analyze it to the point where I worry. I sometimes never know when to just let it be, feel me. Some things are just…JUST. Nothing more and nothing less. It can either ruin me or benefit me. Sometimes, having something too good to be true – is too good to be true. I’m hard headed, persistent, analytical, and soft. When I say I’m soft, I mean that I give the benefit of the doubt. I give folks a chance to be real with me, and hear shit from them. I let people get my trust and hope that in the end it was a choice made wisely. I want to say I don’t trust just anyone, but I must admit, I trust those who I let it pretty easily. I want to say I’m mean, but I let things slide when I know its not worth arguing about. Consequently, all these factor into why I think and do the things I do. Many wont understand, others will try, but only I will understand the reasoning behind it all. 

Like that song by Matchbox 20, “I’m not crazy, I’m just a lil unwell, I know right now you can’t tell…”  

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I hate when something comes in between you and school. I HATE, HATE that. Esp, when it affects your grades. I’m an avid believer that school should come first and that folks should know where their priorities lie. I guess thats why I feel bad. Didn’t mean for you to fail a quiz…=/ I feel responsible. Selfishly wanting you to stay knowing you had a quiz. Take care of yourself. School first. 

ugh.