Archive for March 6th, 2009

March 6, 2009

Off The Record.

I spent days, restlessly thinking about you
I spent hours counting the minutes and seconds I have missed without you here
I continue to face defeat every day
I crumble slowly inside
realizing that everything that was will never be again.

I spent days wondering what happened
I spent hours telling myself it’ll be okay as I see the seconds pass away
I continue to regret the day
I continue to crumble slowly inside

I know you well
I wish you all that is
I know things aren’t going as planned
but I know things will come to view
as the days go on
as the hours and seconds tick
I’ll continue to think about us
for you will be in my heart somewhere
forever with me.

You run your mouth with gossip.
Filled with passion and information awaiting certain reactions.
Your days are half spent listening
while the other is half spent talking
not about your life, but of others concerns
As you continue to consume your head with problems not of yours
but of others.
As it grows on you, it slowly consumes your everyday routine
You feed off the little things
and spread the information on to the next
Circling you is the knowledge of everyone and everything
You know more, but none of this concerns you
You act as though you know the solution
You feel like you can solve each situation
You want to be included in all
So you continue to run
for stopping is not an option.

March 6, 2009

iljb#7: All the fame and such.

I never thought youtube would be anything more than just posting videos up of myself. Boy was I wrong. Its been more than just a space for me to vent, help and give advice, or to find random stuff on the internet. Its been a great resource to connect with folks all over the world or local and find similar interests. It still gets me when I get stopped or recognized by folks who watch my videos. “You’re ilikejoaquin right?” haha it is mind boggling. The ego of having such a “celebrity status” hasn’t gotten to my head, but it does make me smile. ha.

I’m trying my best to get partner just cause I figured its another way of income for doing what I do. lol but its been unsuccessful…I already got denied. LOL. WHATEVER. jp. However, hopefully in time I will. Shrugs. People really do adore my gay series, I think its very different from many gay series out there on youtube…that I am very proud of. For me…I’m just an ordinary guy who does ordinary things who happens to just post it online for public viewing. Looking back at everything…man…its been a ride.

Its also been crazy because ever since I made everything “ilikejoaquin” based, its been easier for folks to get a hold of me. The only thing now is to change my sn lol…blah =_= haha. All the fame and such…oOo man.