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March 5, 2009

Off The Record.

He takes my heart
and places it at the bottom of his chest
surrounded by everything else important to him
He keeps it safe, for it wont get harmed
by whatever mistakes lie before him

My heart beats
pumping through his veins
hoping it could reach his mind

He ignores its attention
he forgets what was beating to begin with
for it is deep within his chest amongst the other hearts he keeps
mine is just one of the same
pumping for attention
for some recognition

He only gives for one
He shakes the rest
forgetting its initial meaning
forgetting who’s heart

He takes my heart
as it slowly falls a part
deep within his chest
amongst others
mine is just one of the same

March 5, 2009

iljb#6: Communication 101

I’m sick an tired to have to deal with folks who don’t know how to communicate well. It seems as if I’m having more communication issues than I used to in the past. With all my current relationships, I feel that its just getting the best of me in that I have to really have patience in the situation. I don’t know what it is, but I can’t focus at a time like this.

I step back and laugh at the situation I’m in because its ridiculous how simple the situation is that a lil “misunderstanding” or “communication” can alter the whole situation and escalate it. I AM FED UP! YOU HEAR ME! FED UP with this bullshit. This isn’t how my semester is supposed to start out. This isn’t how 2009 should be panned out to be. WTF is going on T_T. I know what I’m worth, I know what the fuck I’m doing.


FUCKKKKKK -__- I’m frustrated. I’m angry. I’m sad. I’m everything that doesn’t involve a smile. I’m dissatisfied with things…


If there was a class for communication 101, I could recommend it to folks to take…wait you already did? MMMM it sure doesn’t seem like it.

March 5, 2009

iljb#5: What the fuck?


Breaking News: The L.A. County District Attorney has just charged Chris Brownwith felony assault and making criminal threats, also a felony. The charging documents name Robyn F. (aka Rihanna) as the alleged victim. Brown will be arraigned today at 3:30 PM in downtown LA. Chris Brown could face a maximum of four years and eight months in prison. [Source]

More Details Emerge: FOX 11 in L.A. obtained LAPD detectives notes from a search warrant in the case. As per the notes, Rihanna read a three-page text message on Brown’s phone from a woman. An argument ensued and Brown allegedly tried forcing Rihanna out of the car but couldn’t because she was wearing her seat belt.

Brown then allegedly shoved Rihanna’s head against the passenger window. When Rihanna turned to face him, Brown punched her, then continued punching her while driving, according to the detective’s notes.

Blood spattered all over Rihanna’s clothing and in the interior of the car. Her mouth was filled with blood. Brown allegedly told Rihanna, “I’m going to beat the **** out of you when we get home. You wait and see.”

Rihanna called her assistant and left a message saying, “I am on my way home. Make sure the cops are there when I get there.” Brown then replied, “You just did the stupidest thing ever. I’m going to kill you.” According to the report, Brown continued to punch Rihanna, bit her on her ear, her fingers and put her in a headlock — she almost lost consciousness. [Source]

Note: The photo that TMZ obtained showing Rihanna battered, bloody and bruised is mild compared to other photos. They’ve learned additional pics were taken on February 9, the day after the attack, and they are far more gruesome — the bruises and swelling far more pronounced. These photos show injuries that could be devastating in a case against Brown.

It is still disturbing to me how a good amount of folks cannot believe that Chris Brown was actually capable of doing this to Rihanna. Additionally, folks can’t put the two why she would come back to Chris? HELLO! Are you serious? I just hope he does go to jail ya know. I do like his music and that is truly hard to separate from the person, but trust as a ONCE fan of Chris Brown its going to be tough for me to separate the two.

People are like, “WTF is the big deal?” Really? What if that was your mom? What if your mom got beat up and had to live with the side affects…you gonna stand there and say the man that did it wasn’t a bad man? MMMM I doubt that. Or even someone close to you man or woman. It can happen to anyone. This kind of domestic violence is really out of line. This domestic violence is unfortunately out for public critique. I highly doubt that if it wasn’t “TRUE” that Chris wouldn’t be in this situation that he is in. T_T sooo fucking LAME….

Chris Brown. WTF?