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February 9, 2009

Maybe…

Why am I scared to put my heart out again for someone new? Why am I scared? I always tell people, as long as you put out your best, you shouldn’t be scared. You take that risk and thats fine. But why can’t I follow my own advice. This advice of taking a “RISK” seems more of an arduous task than I thought it would be. I keep on playing the same love songs over and over. Attaching meaning to each one…relating it back to my situation. Is this why I don’t want to risk it? Is this what I am afraid of? Loving once again? Picking up the pieces that have been shattered on the floor?

Dramatic as I am making it seem, it really is a tragic story of my life. The more I put myself out there, the farther I get from what I want. To risk…to RISK…maybe. Maybe not…