Archive for April, 2008

April 24, 2008

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII suck =(

So I suck because, I haven’t been going to my eths class…man…I would want to, but because of events happening, I just can’t right now, not until PCN is over. MAN! I know sucks…but…I will try to do my best =( …but yo PCN is looking real good. REAL good =] howlah

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April 22, 2008

PCN ugh

I’m like not feeling it right now…well as far as doing my part in PCN…ads…its just fuck I find that I don’t have the time in the world to do shit…fuck…you know…man and school on top of that…fuckk shits…bullshit…im tired…i slept on accident last night and then some…I have hella shit due today for my DAI class…I don’t have my life on track…what bitch. -_- 

April 21, 2008

Life never gets easier…

Ain’t that always the case though. As we grow older, it seems we have more responsibility and problems to endure. More stress, less sleep…especially when one is a college student like myself. I find that I don’t get enough time in the day to just relax and enjoy my time…especially during PCN season. I can’t seem to focus this semester. There’s a huge absence in motivation this semester. For whatever reason, I sometimes feel like I want to just give up…but knowing what I am capable of, I feel like lowering my standards is not an option. However, I do find time to procrastinate on my studies and PACE when I should be doing otherwise…ugh, this semester is one that I need to just get over with…ugh I cant blog right now…I have to wake up in a few hours! -_- damnit I’m tired.

April 20, 2008

I’m going crazy! lol…

REAL talk. I’m in the living room and I’m like procrastinating like no other on my PACE homework and my DAI prompt. UGHH…I didn’t waste a day, but I felt like I could have done more. hahah I’m excited about PCN. I’m in the Chris Brown piece…and in front! haha…dude I’m ready for UCB’s PCN. BRING IT! haha…sigh I cleaned too much today -_- whack. lol I hate cleaning and cleaning without recognition…lol but foreal though. shit was messy today. UGHHH I’m never buying my friends alcohol again. UGH! I never get paid back -_-. ERIC was being such a bitch last night. I dunno why. UGH…just cause you have a fucking girlfriend. UGH pisses me off…UGH!!! The end…I need to start on my shit now…

April 17, 2008

Boys will be boys…

I have this theory about boys…nope not men, cause if they was men they’d own up to a lot more shit and man up to a lot of bullshit that boys don’t. Anyway, boys argue and come up with the bullshittest bullshit in a relationship, that in the end the relationship that was once the happiest one, ultimately becomes the worst. Many factors come into play when dealing with boys…

My experience has been. I talk to one…ends up not what I thought it was gonna be. It doesn’t work out…kinda go off in a bitter ending…but then months later they come back into my life. -_- ugh. Whaattteverrrr…Boys are stupid! UGHH…k…the end =]

April 17, 2008

Theres a reason for everything…

Thats how I see it, a reason for everything. There’s a reason why I’m still up at 3:30 in the morning, why I haven’t submitted my DAI final paper summary, and why I’ve created this blog on wordpress. I think one main reason is I like the design layouts for this site, it’s something I’ve always been going for…and to add its kind of sophisticated haha. I haven’t blogged in what…months…ah…maybe weeks, but still I used to blog a lot. However, life has just gotten the best of me and I’ve become absent in my own words and thoughts. I think another reason why is because of youtube. That site has become the death of me. Anyway, life right now is…complicated. I don’t know where to begin.

I’m fucking up in school – way worse than I have ever imagined…two classes this semester? Two actual classes…man and I’m barely making the grade on those. To add, PCN season has been going on and the amount of practices and stress its brought into my life has just been unpleasant. But the biggest worry that has plagued me is my financial situation. After spending money on numerous things and occasions, I have come down to living my weeks from pay check to pay check. I have bills and rent to look out for…but I don’t work as often to pay them off until PCN is over. Sigh…I don’t know how I’m going to get through these next weeks. 

I miss blogging about my life. I miss not having to sugar coat what I feel and not having to be judged on what I say or how I’m saying it…thats where youtube comes in. haha. I think I’ve come a long way from freshman year to where I am today. Like always, I must say I have grown a lot. I feel like I have a hold of what I want in life and what I really need. I’m done done…trying to find MR. RIGHT trying to fit in my MR. BUSY lifestyle. I’m getting the body that I want…slowly, but surely. And my friends…<3 thats all I can say. I’m lacking my spiritual drive and motivation though. I’ve been needing that lately. What my mom said to me has gotten to me recently, “What you have, God can easily take away.” Man…my mom is amazing haha. It’s true though…

You know…I shall continue my thoughts at a later time. I think I feel like I need to just rest. Long day ahead of me =P

April 4, 2008

I’m going crazy! UGH lol…

REAL talk. I’m in the living room and I’m like procrastinating like no other on my PACE homework and my DAI prompt. UGHH…I didn’t waste a day, but I felt like I could have done more. hahah I’m excited about PCN. I’m in the Chris Brown piece…and in front! haha…dude I’m ready for UCB’s PCN. BRING IT! haha…sigh I cleaned too much today -_- whack. lol I hate cleaning and cleaning without recognition…lol but foreal though. shit was messy today. UGHHH I’m never buying my friends alcohol again. UGH! I never get paid back -_-. ERIC was being such a bitch last night. I dunno why. UGH…just cause you have a fucking girlfriend. UGH pisses me off…UGH!!! The end…I need to start on my shit now…